Seventeen years ago at six in the morning my world as I knew it fell apart. Don the love of my life and the man for whom I waited for thirty-six years died of a heart attack. He was such a good man and it seemed so unfair to me that he died so young and evil men live to be old men. He was forty-eight at the time of his death and I was left a widow at fifty-two with two young sons to rear alone. As much as I miss Don, I still feel that the worst part of the entire situation was that Scott and Brian had to grow up without a father. He was a wonderful father and at least he was there for Scott for thirteen years and for almost ten years for Brian. I had him for a husband for fifteen years, two months, and one week. I have now been a widow for two years longer than I was married.
Tonight I took dinner to Mignon’s and we had a delightful meal. She baked the hot rolls and made the iced tea and I brought the pasta salad and German chocolate cake for dessert. Not the usual German chocolate but a much easier recipe. I made the German chocolate cake mix as usual and then added a can of the coconut, pecan frosting. It is so easy and so good. Shortly before I left, Ashley and Bryce came in and he certainly enjoyed a piece of cake. I came home early for Mignon and Ashley had a baby shower to attend and I did not want to go with them. I will make a baby quilt and give to the grandmother after the baby is born.
Unfortunately, I did not sew one stitch today. I had to run to Walmart to pick up a few groceries and while there I was wandering through the aisles with plastic containers and storage cabinets. There were two cabinets with three drawers on sale so I bought both. I plan to eventually get rid of all the plastic boxes and just have the CQ stash in cabinets which are much easier to get to than in boxes which are always stacked at least three high. And when I have gotten rid of all my cotton and cotton/poly stash by making quilts for missions I will not have that much stash. I can hardly wait. There are several other things that I want to do again such as stenciling, rubber stamping, silk screening, batik, Swedish weaving, and needle punch. Have equipment and supplies to do all so think it is time to start doing something different. I rather doubt that I will get back into counted cross stitch and needlepoint even though I have several UFOs of both. Years ago I always had counted cross stitch or needlepoint in my purse to work on when waiting anywhere I happened to be. Then my cataracts got so bad that I could not see well enough to stitch so I put everything away. After the cataracts were removed a few years ago, I then began making appliqué quilts and am now tired of doing that. I don’t think that I will get tired of doing CQ and silk ribbon embroidery. I think that crazy quilts have always been my favorite style of quilts.
The anniversary of the worst day of my life is almost over so think I will go to bed early and listen to a book on tape. Tomorrow I will get back to work on Mignon’s quilt. She is only going to be gone two weeks and if I am not careful I will let the time get away and the quilt still will not be finished.
I wish I had seen this early. I also lost my husband 7 years ago to a heart attck. I was 42. My children were 19 and 18. My daughter was 3 months along with our 1st grandchild. I miss him everyday. He passed away two weeks before our 25th wedding ann. I am truly sorry for your loss.